I've been perusing university websites, the Craigslist job section and random career related sites. I do this every six months or so. I searched constantly when I unhappily worked in social services. I was on a mission to find a more suitable career and spent many hours wandering aimlessly online for an answer. And for awhile I found it! I began to improvise and loved it! I wrote funny stuff and loved it! I performed and got paid and definitely loved it! It was goodness!
But life changes. The paid gig went away. I wrote less. I stopped performing almost entirely. And while I was sad about those things, I also got pregnant with The Most Amazing Boy To Ever Live! I devoted all my time and energy to that endeavor, partly because I was so darn thrilled to be a mommy and partly because being pregnant was not easy. (Why can't us women folk get paid to grow life for god's sake?)
Now I have The Boy. And we live in a new state. A state where my creative endeavors can flourish if I let them. You see, I know what I want to do. I always have. I just keep trying to find a way to make all those dreams come true while coloring within the lines, so to speak. How can I fulfill these creative tendencies while finding stable hours, health insurance and a 401K? I can't. I can check out all sorts of other careers that I'd be good at but I won't like them as much. So I gotta stop running to the computer in search of an answer and just run to the computer and create the answer. It is time.
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